Venus in Scorpio: license to ho

"Yeah, men should be wanting you.  No need to pursue them.  If you have to pursue them, they suck."

It's both the sexiest and the most crippling position in my chart. Venus in Scorpio... conjunct Pluto. Add to this my mutual deception with Mars in Libra and, well...

That's not exactly true. I know exactly what I'm doing, I just have a hard time NOT doing it. It all starts with Neptune on my DC - every friend and romantic interest is automatically idealized as whatever I currently want. Make friends with a cool girl, we're gonna be super best friends! So many adventures in clubland/dateland await us *GRIN*  Meet a cute guy that seems intelligent and fun, I am already fantasizing about how adorable you find my lack of cooking skills (VERY).

The next phase involves an all out Scorpionic pursuit. My Sun in Sag and Moon in Aqu cool the passion somewhat and my Venus' fixed sign pride tries to appear nonchalant. Which is actually pretty easy bc current Mr. Wonderful doesn't know that I'm checking my text/email every hour for any new communication just to feed my twitterpation. Eventually though, my desire to connect overpowers my pride and I'll find any excuse to talk to my new interest if too much time has passed (around day is normal, right?).

Typically, I take up with guys that are equally interested, so I don't have to embarrass myself too badly. But recently I crossed paths with a ridiculously attractive narcissist and realized after a few weeks that things were never actually going to go anywhere (what guy texts a girl erratically for weeks, sends her a pic of his bedroom, but doesn't try to get in bed with her?!). I was merely his narcissistic supply feeding his weird ego needs. It was empowering for my Venus in Scorp to cut him loose (I was suuuuuuuuper mature about it even, bc my Mars in Libra is kind of a pussy...). "You disappeared!!" Yep Mr. hot Puerto Rican narcissist, you're incredibly unreliable and lack follow through. Though my Venus in Scorp still holds this retarded hope that he'll figure his shit out and contact me again.

Ha! Found an article that perfectly describes my situation: I was being "e-maintained." Didn't even get a hookup, which is both good and disappointing. At least my demanding Venus in Scorp only allowed me to waste 3 weeks on this BS.